I had an idea! There is a better way to exercise, I more personalised approach surrounded by the things you love.
MYCERCISE!
You can feel that your neck is tense, you can feel your legs haven't moved for a while... well, focus on them! Use your imagination to initiate the movements you are lacking in those areas. How do you know if you're getting better? Do it to your favourite song. Then when you can do it for a whole song, do it for 2 of your favourite songs!
It's a great idea! Just move... how you feel... listen to your body develop a realisation of what you need, and then do it.
It saves you money, it gives you exactly what you need, you can create a playlist of your favourite tunes, you can gage your progress and control your development.
I'll attempt to create a video and show you all... hehehe... it's personal training made actually personal....
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Friday, November 20, 2009
A state of annoyance, a state of surveilance.
I'm sick of it!
- The surveilance by my mother!
I'm sick of it!
- The annoyance by my know it all sister!
I'm old, let me be free!
- The surveilance by my mother!
I'm sick of it!
- The annoyance by my know it all sister!
I'm old, let me be free!
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Eeeep!
Do I know what I want? - No, but I have an idea...
What am I affraid of? - I don't know, but feeling the Shiva and Shakti energy playing in an innocent situtaion, REALLY scared me. And when I said no to it, I felt like I lost.
I am trying so hard to make the hens night for my friend a success. But I am so fed up with her friends! Are they not friends!!!?!?! Firstly, their priorities are all warped. Secondly, they are dropping out like flies. Thridly, WHY are they ALLLLLL broke and have some emergency. AND, finally WHY do they not want to participate in some fun and first say yes and then after I pay for it pull out and say no. I'M NOT EVEN ORGANISING ANYTHING RISKE!!!!!!! Ass holes! The fact is, if I had work, or got offered to do a gig on the evening of my close friends hen's night, I'd go to the hen's night and say no to the rest. Looks like I'm the only one.
SOOOOOOO the hens night is costing me over $1,000 why? because people keep pulling out after I pay for things, and because so many people are broke. It's trully disappointing.
I really want to learn Bhangra. But it feels so polluted now. I didn't expect to become social and friendly with the teacher, and now it's just odd. Plain odd. So I said no. And now, as per usual feeling after one says no, I feel I have lost out on something. I think THIS is the fear of a loss of Shiva energy for ever.
It felt good to take some time out and talk some of these things through with a colleague. I'm still settling in at work, and really, honestly, trully, am none the wiser. At least I am starting to work out where the boundries of my role are and what to keep versus what to pass on to someone else. Please let me learn it well....
What am I affraid of? - I don't know, but feeling the Shiva and Shakti energy playing in an innocent situtaion, REALLY scared me. And when I said no to it, I felt like I lost.
I am trying so hard to make the hens night for my friend a success. But I am so fed up with her friends! Are they not friends!!!?!?! Firstly, their priorities are all warped. Secondly, they are dropping out like flies. Thridly, WHY are they ALLLLLL broke and have some emergency. AND, finally WHY do they not want to participate in some fun and first say yes and then after I pay for it pull out and say no. I'M NOT EVEN ORGANISING ANYTHING RISKE!!!!!!! Ass holes! The fact is, if I had work, or got offered to do a gig on the evening of my close friends hen's night, I'd go to the hen's night and say no to the rest. Looks like I'm the only one.
SOOOOOOO the hens night is costing me over $1,000 why? because people keep pulling out after I pay for things, and because so many people are broke. It's trully disappointing.
I really want to learn Bhangra. But it feels so polluted now. I didn't expect to become social and friendly with the teacher, and now it's just odd. Plain odd. So I said no. And now, as per usual feeling after one says no, I feel I have lost out on something. I think THIS is the fear of a loss of Shiva energy for ever.
It felt good to take some time out and talk some of these things through with a colleague. I'm still settling in at work, and really, honestly, trully, am none the wiser. At least I am starting to work out where the boundries of my role are and what to keep versus what to pass on to someone else. Please let me learn it well....
Friday, November 6, 2009
Absolutely annoyed.
How would you feel when the things you are interested in and want to do make you feel that you appear like an imposter to others because you're not meant to want those things?
How would you feel when every important meeting and appointment is scheduled over the top of what you are interested in and want to do?
How would feel if you had to hide the things you are interested because noone understood?
How would you feel if every day started with a battle?
How would you manage wanting to be free and say everything on your mind, while wanting to say it as yourself?
How do you balance all of these things? Because, I don't think you're any different from me. The thoughts that go through your head... if anyone knew them...
How would you feel when every important meeting and appointment is scheduled over the top of what you are interested in and want to do?
How would feel if you had to hide the things you are interested because noone understood?
How would you feel if every day started with a battle?
How would you manage wanting to be free and say everything on your mind, while wanting to say it as yourself?
How do you balance all of these things? Because, I don't think you're any different from me. The thoughts that go through your head... if anyone knew them...
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
WI 2: Participation
Happy Melbourne cup everyone! I hope you all dressed up at work :).... and if not.... bad, bad, bad... you are not participating in some of our limited social interactions and exitements.
I dressed up and felt like a dweeb walking to my car, but once I arrived at work, there were a couple of others who dressed up! I felt more connected to those who dressed up... they cared, they wanted to play a part, they were ready to pick the moments and make them exciting/unique/special, they were ready to gamble and risk that noone else would dress up. For some reason this means a lot to me. I also believe it means a lot to others, everyone participating within their means. I understand noone wants to be forced to participate, but landmark participation events (in my mind) have to be made, to punctuate the flow of time and to keep me thinking to participate. If I hadn't participated, I feel like I wouldn't have seized the time. And I want to!...
A building of shared experiences and a creation of communities of action by means of displayed participation - it can lead to greater things. Many things seem too big or impossible to me because I often forgotten the stairs by which to get to the impossible things. Recently I have been not just thinking, but believing and accepting it as normal, that anything is possible. Call it "invincibility of youth" (as my dad does), but I don't think that's it... I may lack patience to execute or my attention may get called upon by other ideas, but I am of the belief I can create a plan and path towards anything. Participation, it's a step towards trusting the people around you, like the neighbour you never talk to, I want to take the step more. I am trying to bring participation into new contexts. Not sure how to explain what I mean. I don't want to be called out for an audience participation exercise and that be my "participation mode" trigger. I just want to do it, be more involved. Can you please do the same? For some reason it means a lot to me.... like when one athlete from some remote country in Africa walks around the Olympic stadium waving his country's flag... he showed up man! He knew he was probably going to be the only one, but he wanted to take the chance and participate. It really stirrs emotions in me to see the athletes from smaller countries fighting for the opportunity to participate, I feel like it is uniting a global humanity... wanky it may be... but it makes me teary when I watch it on TV.
By the way, TED India will be starting any day now! I am so excited to hear all of the speakers... recently I have been jumping a lot to Bhangra and have come to recognise it as my second skin...
I dressed up and felt like a dweeb walking to my car, but once I arrived at work, there were a couple of others who dressed up! I felt more connected to those who dressed up... they cared, they wanted to play a part, they were ready to pick the moments and make them exciting/unique/special, they were ready to gamble and risk that noone else would dress up. For some reason this means a lot to me. I also believe it means a lot to others, everyone participating within their means. I understand noone wants to be forced to participate, but landmark participation events (in my mind) have to be made, to punctuate the flow of time and to keep me thinking to participate. If I hadn't participated, I feel like I wouldn't have seized the time. And I want to!...
A building of shared experiences and a creation of communities of action by means of displayed participation - it can lead to greater things. Many things seem too big or impossible to me because I often forgotten the stairs by which to get to the impossible things. Recently I have been not just thinking, but believing and accepting it as normal, that anything is possible. Call it "invincibility of youth" (as my dad does), but I don't think that's it... I may lack patience to execute or my attention may get called upon by other ideas, but I am of the belief I can create a plan and path towards anything. Participation, it's a step towards trusting the people around you, like the neighbour you never talk to, I want to take the step more. I am trying to bring participation into new contexts. Not sure how to explain what I mean. I don't want to be called out for an audience participation exercise and that be my "participation mode" trigger. I just want to do it, be more involved. Can you please do the same? For some reason it means a lot to me.... like when one athlete from some remote country in Africa walks around the Olympic stadium waving his country's flag... he showed up man! He knew he was probably going to be the only one, but he wanted to take the chance and participate. It really stirrs emotions in me to see the athletes from smaller countries fighting for the opportunity to participate, I feel like it is uniting a global humanity... wanky it may be... but it makes me teary when I watch it on TV.
By the way, TED India will be starting any day now! I am so excited to hear all of the speakers... recently I have been jumping a lot to Bhangra and have come to recognise it as my second skin...
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