WI 1: A Good surprise

Firstly, I had an excellent Bhangra dance class today! I do feel I have trouble being free and sincere, even in my dancing, but.... I'm working on it, especially the "drying hands" motion.

So.... World Improvement action number 1.... What was it??? It was going to a friends birthday who I hadn't seen in ages. Pretty ordinairy right? Well... not really. She didn't even know I was going to come (we hadn't seen eachother in probably over a year maybe two????!) - It was a good surprise, ... I hope..... and, maybe with the help of the butterfly effect, it will have other positive flow-on effects. It felt really good to see my friend again, and it felt very comfortable to be around someone I have known for so long. I can't believe how long we hadn't seen eachother for! Well, we're friends on Facebook, but what does that even mean! I'm starting to delete people from the addictive monster because if anything, Facebook is making me anti-social. Facebook makes me feel I am in touch with someone I actually am not.... and this illusion is not something I like.

I hope I made my friend happier with the surprise appearance at her birthday, it certainly made me feel happier.:)

Happy birthday friend!

Ticking boxes

Things at work are making more sense.... yes!!....
Lots of meetings arranged, hoping to learn things quickly.
The emergence of a stalker is something I don't particularly want in my life right now. - no matter how flattering it is.
Bhangra private dance class this saturday - booked.
Gig today after work - done.
Missing some warmth though,

Ticking boxes - that's all I can manage to do today.
Tick, tick, tick.

very lovely

a busy but good day....

a friend organised a dinner at which i saw lots of people i hadn't seen in ages...
do you ever get the urge to tell someone everything?? - you just wish they'd keep pushing and asking.... that's what i felt tonight.... it was a good feeling

the yoga thing is not working out for me... (upset about that)... i'll probably ask for a refund or a credit. :( except i really do want to do it, but it feels impossible to juggle it with work etc. so, instead, i will continue my blog but writing about what i wanted to write initially... world improvement. yes.

it was a lovely evening, i wish it had continued a little while longer.

Where is my bhangra?? :(

So today was a great day at work! I felt like I knew a little more... YAY!

Then I went to the Bhangra dance class at Dance Central in Sydney... firstly, the woman at the reception was rude, that first got me offside. Then, the class was full of these talking teeny boppy girls and I think we stood while they chatted for more than we danced. This made me feel quite angry but also agitated because I was wasting my time.

- I work the whole day, I deserve a good solid hour of Bhangra jumping! Where can I get it! - I have no idea... I can't get enough Bhangra... and I feel I can't live without it. It's a weird feeling.

Blog - keep it going...

woah... so tired... just enough energy to write this blog. got to keep the discipline going... feeling overload at new job... there is so many posibilities! - i need a RAM increase... as does my computer :)
too tired to go to yoga, to tired to dance, tired enough to have a quick shower and go to bed. i feel dead. but hopeful! but dead...

tonight is going to be an early night.

And the day is gone!

Ah - what a hectic day!
... yet nothing got done.
How can this even happen?

I set harsh limits on everything I do... for instance:
- this posting can't take more than 10 minutes to write and post
- a standard email can't take more than 3 minutes to write
etc.

So much rushing, but still there is a feeling of not having done anything. Sure, done somethings, but the feeling of not having done enough. Enough not as a quantity but a weight of importance?

I just ate the last banana in the house. Success!

The hardest thing is starting

Sometimes the hardest thing is starting and you just have to throw yourself right into it by force. Even if it's rough, un-thought out and poorly structured.

I have big ideas and I often think I can improve things. I need to actually do them.

A lot of new and big things have happened to me recently. I bought a new car, I have a new job (today was the first day), I bought a house, I have started the 40 day yoga revolution program (today was the first day)... all this I feel is life trying to kick me in the butt (and me agreeing with it) to get a move on and start acting on my ideas, start maybe even improving the world.

I am starting by empowering myself with routine and discipline. The yoga, this blog.... I'll let you know how it's all going. Maybe the discipline will uncover the inner super hero I imagine to be in me... the best Stela Solar that Stela Solar can be...

This is the first breath. 1. It feels a little forced, I don't want to re-read it, I just want to keep moving and develop the discipline.